Since I have been 16 years old I’ve found my life stressful and depressing, I’m constantly in fear of the darker, winter months and losing all of my motivation that by the time summer comes I spend those months stressing out trying to repair the damage that has been done over winter. I do try, really hard and although it may not look like much, to me it’s a huge step but it’s quickly stamped on with negativity of “not trying hard enough”, “not caring”, “being a flake/patching bastard” or “only caring when it suits me” and that’s just so far from the truth. I look at my situation every single day of my life and question why I put myself through this stress, worry and fear but I can never find a conclusion, I simply do not know. I often feel like I have nobody to talk to about how I feel when really I know I have friends that would que up to help me out but I just never want the help, sometimes I want to sit and wallow in my own self pity. I’m so terrified of the future, I have no clue where it’s going to take me and that frightens me so much. I just feel like I’m going crazy and there’s nothin I can do about it other than take my medication, sit back and wait for summer so I can worry and count down the days to winter to start it all over again. I don’t know how much more of this I can take anymore, my own life is suffocating me.
blinking is like clapping for your eyes
just remember that ur eyelids are always applauding u and cheering u on even if nobody else is
This website is so inspirational
missing people who treated you like garbage is very strange and dumb
I’m simple to please….
- Tell me I’m pretty
- Get me snacks
- Fuck me right