Pro Tip: Instead of having feelings, try being dead inside. Everything is still horrible but you will not care at all.
but why do i say “i know” to my pets when they make noises. im lying to them. i don’t know anything.
Last week was just amazing.
I got to spend time with family from Australia for a few days, visiting castles and drinking a ridiculous amount with them and my best friend. I got to party even after working until 1am on Saturday which got so out of hand so fast, I recall going to bed at 3pm on Sunday and being awoken by a still very pished Sinky and Keith who hadn’t slept yet and this was 7:30 at night. It was supposed to be a small get together which turned into a party almost instantly.
Events also happened which opened my eyes to a few things. To start with, I do not need people to rub things in my face and I am fully aware of their presence when I am near them, there is absolutely no need to scream and draw attention to yourself. If I look like I’m trying to ignore you, that’s because I am. Secondly, I realised that doing things on a three days at a time basis is an absolutely fantastic way to get things done. And lastly, I’ve learned that some things cannot be changed, no matter how much time, effort and shit load of pain you endure. It just can’t be done sometimes. Some things are not made to be fixed and you just have to accept that if it won’t fix itself.
I am so excited for the next few weeks, they look very promising and for the first time in a very long time I actually feel respected. And you have no idea how fucking much I have needed that.